Yeh, pretty much. I think if my head just cracked open today for no apparent reason, let's say it "hatched" it would look like limp gray spaghetti. That's how I'm feeling.
As you regular blogees already know, I consistently waver between trying to find the positive in something only to have the negative yanking at me. By Friday, I was hangin' out pretty much in the negative lounge of my psyche. In fact, I was not only hanging out there, I was sitting down, feet up and having a diet coke there.
1. Several things were shoving me in the general direction of the lounge. One of the first events was I started having a serious disagreement with my computer. Normally we get along fairly well but on Friday, C.C. (Cheryl's computer) wanted to be slow and take little breaks by "not responding" and I wanted to kick it's little hard drive's ass. The only thing that saved it, is that it is fairly new so the geeks that warrant it, probably wouldn't take kindly to me acting rashly and doing further damage. Fighting with technology is a real buzz kill for me.
2. Thinking a trip to the bookstore might get me on the road to recovery, mood wise that is, I haul myself over to the mall to the Barnes and Noble. I usually enjoy spending time at the bookstore. I find it amazing what gets published. Why aren't we all authors??? These are the two books I bought.
People that Deserve It: Socially Responsible Reasons to Punch Someone in the Face
You Ruined It for Everyone: 101 People Who Screwed Things Up for the Rest of Us
So the outing to the bookstore didn't necessarily help alleviate the probability of my mood continuing it's downward spiral.
A CONTEST FOR A BARIATRIC PROCEDURE! What depressed me was that I don't need that surgery and I think it is grossly unfair that the contest doesn't let you choose a la carte. If it was free ...there might be a thing or two, I would consider having/doing. Not willing to pay for it but FREE is FREE.
4. Hubby left for an out of town job. That always gets me down anyway but then I had a meeting at our church that I had to go solo to. In a past blog I mentioned our church as being large. Well, large might be a little bit of an understatement. Our church is the largest church of it's denomination in the country. There are over 17,000 members and that isn't counting the people that attend that aren't members. I only mention this as how it played into my mood. Sitting in a room with more people than what reside in the last town I resided in as a child is both a blessing and a curse. The downside is (for me anyway) the realization of how small and insignificant one person in a pool of thousands really is and if hubby isn't sitting with me how isolated a person can feel in a room of thousands. On a different day, I would say that having thousands of people that surround you with a like mindedness of faith would be inspirational. (yep,still conflicted)
5 Last but not least, the weather is driving me nuts. (you do understand that the word nuts is a relative word with me?)
Last week Kansas City broke a record high of 72 degrees, to be quickly followed by dropping temperatures leading to sleet, then snow, then more snow. Followed closely by a slight rise in temperature just so we could get an icy mix to cover the snow. Nothing better that 6 inches of snow with a coating in ice to get you to appreciate the millions of year it took man to evolve to walking upright. By Sunday morning there is fog. I mean FOG....Hubby, has a 6 AM flight out of town and I get to haul up to Kansas City International at 4 AM driving through what appears to be cotton balls. No, it is cotton balls sitting on top of ....something slippery....KY jelly maybe....THEN the temp rises again during the day so we can enjoy a thunderous, light show of a rain storm last night only to dip below freezing again during the night. OK, it is official. HELL HAS FROZEN OVER AND IT IS CALLED KANSAS.
Well, now that I have spewed my negativity over the Internet to everyone, my work is done.
Seriously, I expect that I will rebound nicely after a trip to the gym today and get back to my normal half and half self. ( Half optimistic/half pessimistic)
Here is hoping your day is going well, my blogee friends.
Hope you enjoy. I posted the Clean version for those that care.
The Good for the Day.....The sun is shining!!!!
The bad for the day....No bad today....it's going to be better
The Weird for the day....My computer is feeling better too. Back to it's peppy self and no geeks were involved in it's recovery.